Control

If I can just keep control. How easy life would be. Except that the effort to even try to keep control makes life so very hard.

Does that mean that life can be infinitely easier by moving in the opposite direction?

So...let go and let God?

Trying to keep it together is not working. Time to let is come loose?

But if I say what I mean, people will get their feelings hurt. I am responsible for how others feel and particularly at fault if I do something to make them feel bad. So truth is too dangerous a thing to be flying around loose. NOT.

What would happen if I did not care if got angry with me? What would happen if I did not care if was disappointed with me? What would happen if I did not need to like me? What would happen if I did not need anything from ? What would happen if I was so Christlike that my only people need was to be in right relation to the Body of Christ, but I was only defined by my right relation to Christ?

I know this for sure, Father. I really, really want my stuff out of the way of the life that is meant to be, the life in the Kingdom now. Show me the lies that have me bound.