I felt better physically today than I have in a long time. I don't know why, but I have some ideas. The key thing at the moment is that I do not need to know why. I just need to say thank you. So thank you, Father.
Two things are changing, and they are really one thing. Prayer is becoming normal, and gratitude is becoming normal prayer. Prayer is flowing like water. I got my song back this morning, walking through WalMart. I am excited about what is next. There was the turn of a corner two weeks ago at church. I am going back tomorrow, expecting. Expecting God.
I am grateful for the things that have driven me deeper into the embrace of God. I find nothing in my heart keeping me from praying for people who are being used to drive me there. That really is where the water flows the most freely. I can not imagine asking God for adversity, but I also cannot imagine a more amazing season of faith than now.
I still see so much pride operating in my life, and wonder what life in Christ will be like on the other side of that. And I know I will find out. And thank you for that as well.
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Showing posts with label prayer. Show all posts
Saturday, December 3, 2011
Saturday, April 9, 2011
How can so many be wrong?
Does it matter?
It just seems like there are more things to be concerned about than need be. He will perfect that which concerns me. If I have a concern, it can be turned into a prayer and from there into a matter of faith. Done.
I know that the moment any of it is a burden that can not be resolved in prayer, I have taken on the work of a god. As such, my pride is showing and I need to repent and move on.
Maybe this is just my perspective. I know I do not see things in the same way as everyone else. Does that make them wrong?
Daddy, thank you for the vision, the sight you have given me. Forgive my judging now. Especially where it gets in the way of hearing and discerning. I really want the whole learning and application.
It just seems like there are more things to be concerned about than need be. He will perfect that which concerns me. If I have a concern, it can be turned into a prayer and from there into a matter of faith. Done.
I know that the moment any of it is a burden that can not be resolved in prayer, I have taken on the work of a god. As such, my pride is showing and I need to repent and move on.
Maybe this is just my perspective. I know I do not see things in the same way as everyone else. Does that make them wrong?
Daddy, thank you for the vision, the sight you have given me. Forgive my judging now. Especially where it gets in the way of hearing and discerning. I really want the whole learning and application.
Sunday, January 30, 2011
Quitting
Tonight this journal goes private. I do not know if it will ever go public again. Now the blogger account simply provides a place in the cloud to store the writing.
I expect this change to change the writing. No matter how hard or not I tried, I was always writing for my potential readers, who would then validate my effort by commenting and telling others about the writing. Approval addiction is a bitch.
Daddy, I need your approval and I have it. I know that you are and have ever been there for me. I have been and will be finding my rest in You. See, even the capitalization has been for them. I know that you will love me if I do not capitalize every reference to you.
It hurts to make mistakes with my boy. It hurts that he does not trust me. And all the while, all I want him to do is trust you. I am so honored that he called for prayer. I think maybe he is seeing my walk with you. I hope so. It is very good. Thank you for telling and showing me how you love me, and teaching me how to love.
Wow. Key words are now for me, not them.
I expect this change to change the writing. No matter how hard or not I tried, I was always writing for my potential readers, who would then validate my effort by commenting and telling others about the writing. Approval addiction is a bitch.
Daddy, I need your approval and I have it. I know that you are and have ever been there for me. I have been and will be finding my rest in You. See, even the capitalization has been for them. I know that you will love me if I do not capitalize every reference to you.
It hurts to make mistakes with my boy. It hurts that he does not trust me. And all the while, all I want him to do is trust you. I am so honored that he called for prayer. I think maybe he is seeing my walk with you. I hope so. It is very good. Thank you for telling and showing me how you love me, and teaching me how to love.
Wow. Key words are now for me, not them.
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