I Love You

That's what He said. I like all the rest of it, but that is the part I have to have. That is the reason that I went looking for Him. I knew there was someone out there who could and would love me.

My wife loved me, but she did not complete me with her love. My sister and brother love me, but they do not fulfill my existence with their love. My son loves me, but as a son loves a father. A sons love is not meant to say "Amen" over my life.

That is Daddy's job. Dancing around me, singing over me, my Father looks at me and agrees completely, saying "Amen."

Father showed me a picture once, and over and over, of a day I needed Fathering. I was a little boy, and I was waiting on the front walk for my Dad to come home from work. I was expecting him to respond perfectly to my need that evening. He failed. Now keep in mind that my Dad was a great Dad. He did his best. But he was just a man, an earth father. That day I needed my Father in Heaven, because I always have and I always will. I am pretty sure it was not the first or last time he failed. It is just moment I realized that he never would meet that need, scratch that itch.

I am so grateful, Heavenly Father, that you knew I would come looking for You. Like the boy named Sue, there were lots of avenues to relief, but there was only one person who could be the door to AAAHHHHHH! My Dad could provide many things, but I needed You to redeem me out of darkness and hold me in Your Light. Thank you for the hunger in us that has only You for the answer.

Holding on for Dear Life

The wind has not been blowing today. The earth has not been rocking under my feet. Flood waters have not been rising. No one has called with bad news.

I am holding on for Dear Life. Life in the Holy Wild requires holding on for Dear Life. The circumstances of the moment and the day are not the triggers for holding on.

I am holding on for Dear Life because I have tasted and touched and smelled and heard and hugged Dear Life. I am holding on because the way was made for me on the cross not just to experience, but to be able and encouraged to hold on. From this place with my little hands deep in the folds of my Father's robe, the circumstances no longer tempt me to fear. No more do they draw me away from my Father's bosum. What my circumstances do now is to remind me of how loved I am. Because from where I sit, I can see where my Father has brought me from, what I was mired in that He has drawn me out of.

Thank you, Father, for circumstances that glorify you by reminding me of what you have done for me, and for everyone around me.