Break on through

How much does feeling count? Especially when knowing is available, and when knowing contradicts feeling?

Just asking that question made feeling quieter.

I had gotten to leaning on feeling, depending on it as a reference. In that case, even physical pain is a strong thing and can become an anchoring place.

The only problem is that any feeling is a false anchor. Relying on feeling when there is nothing else seems so right. Relying on feeling when there is so much more is an entirely different thing.

Knowing God, even just a little bit, takes away the supreme position of feeling. The soul can no longer dominate. At that moment, the true head of the man, his own spirit, is quickened and steps back up to headship. I can choose to give over to my soul, but I do not ever have to again.

I am made alive again my the Spirit of God. My spirit is quickened, reborn, within me. I arise again to purpose and passion. Spirit alive makes body alive less relevant. Old habits die hard, but loosed is better than bound. Ain't no body gonna hold my spirit down. I will arise and go to my Father.

Father, the clear thing for me tonight is that the only way I am going to, or can, serve any purpose, establish any value, is through truly living. Know spirit, know living.

Control

If I can just keep control. How easy life would be. Except that the effort to even try to keep control makes life so very hard.

Does that mean that life can be infinitely easier by moving in the opposite direction?

So...let go and let God?

Trying to keep it together is not working. Time to let is come loose?

But if I say what I mean, people will get their feelings hurt. I am responsible for how others feel and particularly at fault if I do something to make them feel bad. So truth is too dangerous a thing to be flying around loose. NOT.

What would happen if I did not care if got angry with me? What would happen if I did not care if was disappointed with me? What would happen if I did not need to like me? What would happen if I did not need anything from ? What would happen if I was so Christlike that my only people need was to be in right relation to the Body of Christ, but I was only defined by my right relation to Christ?

I know this for sure, Father. I really, really want my stuff out of the way of the life that is meant to be, the life in the Kingdom now. Show me the lies that have me bound.