Satisfaction

This is Christmas Day. The thing I learned as a kid that Christmas meant was disappointment. I spent months anticipating specific Christmas gifts and not getting them. I was taught to lie in the face of disappointment. I was taught to look up from a newly unwrapped gift, look into the eyes of my Grandmother, and say, "Thank you," with a big smile.

I learned to buy my own toys. I learned that that was what money was for, and later that that was what credit cards were for. I learned that no one on this earth was able and /or willing to pay me enough attention and have the resources to buy me the toys I wanted.

When I started to buy satisfaction with credit cards, credit card interest was a tax deduction. That told me that my behavior was acceptable and desirable.

I only would stop buying new toys when I couldn't. And I was never satisfied.

I have not loved enough people enough to listen to them and find out if they are like me in that regard. I suspect, and will find out, that everyone is looking for the satisfaction of their soul. I have not listened, but have watched. What I have seen people do says that they are not satisfied.

Hardwired seeking for that which is missing. Simple. Taste and see that the Lord is good. He satisfies. This spiritual relationship meets every need. There are still places in my soul that ache for lack of satisfaction. That is not because He does not satisfy. It is only because I have failed to let Him.

Thank you, Father for Your complete provision. Put the lie to the Stones. Show them where to find satisfaction.