The Manifestation of Love

This is new and fear wants me to explain it away.  I know today in a different way that I am loved.  Love has touched my circumstances.  Today.

God.  I am still afraid to say thank you.  You do it all, even when I really don't trust you.  And you still keep me, feed me, give me all of the wisdom I have, teach me and lead me to love, and give me love to give in the middle of a desert.

Thank you.  Forgive me my pride.  I still think this has something to do with me.

I remember one time today when I remembered to thank you.  It was the best moment of a good day.  In that moment there was no temptation to fear.  I prayed more for others today than any previous day in my life.  I needed to, and I wanted to.  But if I had not wanted to, I still would have needed to. I think I am beginning to learn.  I needed to cry for mercy.  It was like breathing.  It was necessary.  I find great hope in that.  Little that I have done in this life has been necessary.  God help me be the part of the body which you chose.